It's the last Friday, 28th September. It has been two weeks since the spouse been in detention, a week since the bestfriend flew to his destination, UK.
It's tough. Missing two people in life at the same time, the heartache I have to bear.
The weekends at mom's couldn't be any better! Both me and belle were there since Friday night. We went to swimming and the mini birthday of lil'niece.
What made my day more, would be the unexpected calls from the bestfriend! I swear, it made me smile till the next morningggg. I was the happiest girl that night and fat sisters could only tease me to make me smile, blush even more!
Sunday, September 30, 2012
Monday, September 24, 2012
#13
It's Monday.
The blues didn't kicked in today. Emotions, moods changed since last night. Skyped with the bestfriend, though it was short and brief. Just thinking about our little session with my shy little girl puts a wide smile on my face. It was nice to hear bestfriend voice and see that adorable bestfriend, busy as always with his vibrating blackberry.
Work was ordinary, stayed till late with all the handover and new tasks added since the girl is resigning. Seeing pictures after pictures on the screensaver, I find myself stalking and notifications just made it worse! Not forgetting, the customised clock I made so to know what time is it over at London.
Looking at the situations, getting myself stress. Without someone to talk to, I don't know how am I going to survive this few months. Just gotta breath and hopefully with prayers, things will get better.
Visiting the spouse this coming Wednesday. I don't know what to expect, what's the outcome.
The blues didn't kicked in today. Emotions, moods changed since last night. Skyped with the bestfriend, though it was short and brief. Just thinking about our little session with my shy little girl puts a wide smile on my face. It was nice to hear bestfriend voice and see that adorable bestfriend, busy as always with his vibrating blackberry.
Work was ordinary, stayed till late with all the handover and new tasks added since the girl is resigning. Seeing pictures after pictures on the screensaver, I find myself stalking and notifications just made it worse! Not forgetting, the customised clock I made so to know what time is it over at London.
Looking at the situations, getting myself stress. Without someone to talk to, I don't know how am I going to survive this few months. Just gotta breath and hopefully with prayers, things will get better.
Visiting the spouse this coming Wednesday. I don't know what to expect, what's the outcome.
Sunday, September 23, 2012
#12
Today. My heart feels heavy, I don't wanna leave jurong and head over to toapayoh. Because I know, I'm only gonna miss the hubby and the bestfriend more while I'm over there.
It's obvious as the fat sisters looked at me and said that my facial expression states it all.
I really need someone to talk. So to take my mind of matters, simply talk anything under the stars and not to touch anything about my stress issues. With ice creams, chocolates and red velvets (;
Miss those two, really hurts and my heart is aching.
It's obvious as the fat sisters looked at me and said that my facial expression states it all.
I really need someone to talk. So to take my mind of matters, simply talk anything under the stars and not to touch anything about my stress issues. With ice creams, chocolates and red velvets (;
Miss those two, really hurts and my heart is aching.
Saturday, September 22, 2012
#11
Putting as much emotions aside, when notifications from him pops up. Smiled when I know he's safe and already at his destination.
Spent the day with family at jurong without my dearest and a problem had to surface when mom woke up this morning. As she scolded me for everything I didn't do, i only cried after it all. Strong, maybe ?
It was quiet today and it will remain this way for awhile. I couldn't be bother to open Facebook, whatsapp or even twitter. Nothing to update, no one to talk to ; even if there was, it would be all for the wrong reasons.
Night fall and I got a whatsapp from the bestfriend. Yes, I was happy and thrilled! But I didn't show, even lil'sissy asked and wondered.
I miss you but I won't say.
Spent the day with family at jurong without my dearest and a problem had to surface when mom woke up this morning. As she scolded me for everything I didn't do, i only cried after it all. Strong, maybe ?
It was quiet today and it will remain this way for awhile. I couldn't be bother to open Facebook, whatsapp or even twitter. Nothing to update, no one to talk to ; even if there was, it would be all for the wrong reasons.
Night fall and I got a whatsapp from the bestfriend. Yes, I was happy and thrilled! But I didn't show, even lil'sissy asked and wondered.
I miss you but I won't say.
Friday, September 21, 2012
#10
I'll stop hoping and just wait for your return.
Hey, I'm sorry for making it awkward between us if I did. I should try and control my emotions. It's gonna hurt really bad but I guess I should try. And keep it as bestfriend only~
I hope the best for you. I'll keep you in my prayers, I always will.
Bcz you matter and I really don't wanna lose you in any ways.
#09
The bestfriend left for UK, last night. I was upset, I missed him already. Left him whatsapp after whatsapp. Still no reply, the heart aches so much and still , I believe he should spend time with his family and friends. Didn't wanna bother him much even after sisters, girlfriend pester me to call him or something.
I did spend my evening with him two evenings ago. Hugs, kisses and more. It couldn't be better. Promised to be a good girl while he's there. I just hope he comes back to SG and still contact me. Otherwise, I'll be so devastate.
When he left; looked at his pictures, keep checking for any reply from him like a lovesick puppy. Cried and cried, when I know he has flown off to his destination. Last night, I slept looking at his picture on my phone. Ironically, I dreamt of him; he called me the moment he touches down. It made me smile for a moment there.
I did spend my evening with him two evenings ago. Hugs, kisses and more. It couldn't be better. Promised to be a good girl while he's there. I just hope he comes back to SG and still contact me. Otherwise, I'll be so devastate.
When he left; looked at his pictures, keep checking for any reply from him like a lovesick puppy. Cried and cried, when I know he has flown off to his destination. Last night, I slept looking at his picture on my phone. Ironically, I dreamt of him; he called me the moment he touches down. It made me smile for a moment there.
#08
Last entry was in march.
This would be the place I shall confide when I miss the bestfriend. I have nowhere else to turn.
My crush, my bestfriend; Riduwan aka Swift 1. We had this ' friendship ' for 1 year plus. It began when I started working with Allenbryans, I remember it started somewhere in April. He claimed to be single; he was concerned, he was friendly, he's adorable and what more, he's musically talented.
We met up a couple of times, at the mrt station. We chatted, we hugged, we laughed. Until that faithful day we went out and soon after, he went mia.
Through Facebook, I found out he was attached. I was hurt, my crush for him died down.
After so long.. If I wasn't mistaken, we met again for dinner over at Macdonalds. One, two months later. I became officially a wife ; yet again he went mia.
He contacted again. And we went out more. We did laughed, talked and was there for each other. Now, the crush is back. Deeper than before.
This would be the place I shall confide when I miss the bestfriend. I have nowhere else to turn.
My crush, my bestfriend; Riduwan aka Swift 1. We had this ' friendship ' for 1 year plus. It began when I started working with Allenbryans, I remember it started somewhere in April. He claimed to be single; he was concerned, he was friendly, he's adorable and what more, he's musically talented.
We met up a couple of times, at the mrt station. We chatted, we hugged, we laughed. Until that faithful day we went out and soon after, he went mia.
Through Facebook, I found out he was attached. I was hurt, my crush for him died down.
After so long.. If I wasn't mistaken, we met again for dinner over at Macdonalds. One, two months later. I became officially a wife ; yet again he went mia.
He contacted again. And we went out more. We did laughed, talked and was there for each other. Now, the crush is back. Deeper than before.
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