#27

I see dark skies these days. i have no idea when the sun will shine again.

For the past few days or weeks, troubled water got worse. i fear for what seems so close yet so far. I am overwhelmed with responses that i've never felt in a long while. Truly, i am scared.

Just like how a leopard never changes it spots to how a lizard changes colour to protect itself. i see nothing has changed.

i wish i still had someone to talk to these days.

#26

As stated. 
i never should have trusted a piece of my heart to anyone else. 

To be honest, it's a huge mistake that i will never learn from. Because deep inside, i know that maybe i deserve to be happy in life. However, i am tested through so much obstacles that i might end up hurting myself in seeking what i may or may not need.

# 25

today is the last day i would text you.

Nothing can sum up how i feel right now, it is as though i've lost a little piece in my heart. i am sorry if i intrude your life and if i've ruin the 'happy-mode' you must be in for your wedding is drawing near.

I guess i will never learn, i guess i am naive enough to believe that maybe things could be different this time round. But who am i kidding right?

To heal from this minor setback will still take awhile. Well, i am used to his charms and everything else like his text, he is forever concerned and always attentive. And yes, i am attracted to him emotionally.

Oh why did i get myself tangled with a gemini??