#24

Mixed emotions took a toll on me last night.

Tears shed for the first time in a long time awhile. The disappointment in having to hear his nonsenses and his behavior on crucial things in life. At that moment, i swear i lost all hopes in him. i was utterly hurt by the fact he could only care of himself, his needs rather than the plans and thoughts we have put in for our future benefits.

And in the wee hours of the night, we didn't catch on our sleep. He urge that i stay awake with him, which i did eventually on 2 conditions ; FOOD & MOVIE.

No one is as ANNOYING as he is, to the extend of me hating his presence in my life ; as IRRITATING as he is, to the extend of making me hate my own body ; as DEMANDING as he is, to have me at his back and call ; as RUDE as he is, to have me scold vulgar as and when provoke ; as PLAYER as he is, to have me cry my hearts out at night and made me believe all guys are the same.

FOR EVERY BAD DEEDS OR STUFFS HE DID, THERE'S ALWAYS SOMETHING HE DID RIGHT. I CAN'T NAME IT ALL BUT HE IS HOW HE IS, I CAN NEVER CHANGE THAT.

#23

Monday never been this blue before.

Before the weekend, i was happy like a child who just got ice cream. For once, i just felt free ; free from commitments, free from life. And i would do anything to re-live that day again.

It was a tough weekend, but i managed to pull through. With the preparation for the open house, the great company that came by and the cranky partner who had to made it worse. And to top it off, the other number was discovered.

And there were moments that happen during the weekends, they are something i just have to share. Well, elly being elly is extremely forgetful.

But i would have to conclude that today, monday would be the worse. I was really looking forward to the messages, the giggles behind the phone and to feel at ease when spoken to.

Maybe i forgot, maybe i was day-dreaming again; but there and then, i felt it was only the two of us.. i miss you.