#05

I don't know how to explain my feelings.

I don't know if wanna continue with the facade that I made a year ago. Because of this one guy, Garfield is what I call him (: He's the cutest, friendest and adorable guy I've ever met or known. He wasn't suppose to be the target of this facade but...

Now, I've fallen for him and he too has fallen. I can tell that he loves 'her' only that he's being caution due to previous relationship and I don't blame him at all. I'm afraid to tell him the truth and I'll never declare who 'her' really is. Ohmyyy. What have I gotta myself into )':

I don't wanna break his heart, I know that his girl friend is interested in her and I really don't wanna lose my reasons to smile and giggle ): and I don't want him to find out the hard way, he will be do disappointed.

Please believe me. Tho' it's not all that true. Feelings for you is there.. Sighhhhh~ I'm sorry, I really don't wanna hurt you. You're too nice of a guy to be treated like this. )': if only you knew but I guess, you wont

#04

Are you sure of the message you texted me yestarday . Are you really gonna try hard to save this hanging relationship .

A part of me , i'm somewhat pleased that things might take a change for itself but at the same time, i'm like ' IS HE FOR REAL? ' Not to be a bitch but i've noticed the changes in him these past days .

I know , deep down . He's still hoping for a chance , the slightest of chance to be reunited with his old flame . i don't blame him really . Who am i to judge or be mad? He never promise to marry me . He just said ; i'll help you with this child and help you overcome this pregnancy .

I don't know if i'm making the right choice . i'm not confident myself . But i'm just going ahead with the plans of the marriage , i'm left with no other option bcz he's not letting me end this relationship . sighhhh ~

#03

Maybe i had a crush on you, maybe i liked you more than a friend. But i know, deep down. i can never have you to be mine, I'm sorry you had to be apart of my not-so-bright ideas in which made you love me and everything.

You made my day almost all the time, when the other guy wasn't reachable. It's not that i'm making a fool out of the both of you. I really want to put an end to this facade but i don't know how. i don't wanna hurt anyone else.

You know, i've downloaded your cover of nobody but you. Yestarday night as i was listening to while at work, in an instant. i was reminded of you, of how we would giggle on the phone and you always making me smile (: I cried, i really did. i missed you tho' it's not actually her/me. sighhh~ i can't let you know about the facade.

But for real, i missed you and i know that you're avoiding every possible contact with me. I'm sorry that i contacted you via web yestarday. Not hoping for you to forgive me but still, i wanted to let out how much i miss you and i'm really really sorry.

#02

Found this on my blog while looking for a picture. -
** P.S. : REMEMBER Bby, We're SINGLEbutUNAVAILABLEtau.
el.AMORis.thisYUNG'N's:Bby Ger:
Please Stay Clear. Mine & Only. ** #reminisce #memories

#01

New blog, New chapter in life and another way to express myself